美好的一天
明天不一定美好，但美好的一天总会到来。”
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Love and warm
Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart."-Kay Knudsen
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Thinking of you
Somewhere there is someone that dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worthwhile, so when you are lonely remember it’s true, someone somewhere is thinking of you.”
Monday, August 07, 2006
The story of the Tree, Leaf and Wind
Tree
The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre- U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal. I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility.
Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years.
She watch me chase after gals, and I have make her heart cry for 3 years. She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day.
When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend.
The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers.When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together.
I know who is the guy. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too.
During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay".
Leaf
During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage.
During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 mths. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness.But after a mth, he got together with another gal.
I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he don't like he, why does he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right?
Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him.
The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years. Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree.
In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.
Wind
Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer.
During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her,there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.
One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left.
The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept the note. The next day, she appeared & pass me a note and left. Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this erseverance that one day I will make her like me.
Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her.
Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her door bell.
During the moment when she opens the door. I hugged her tightly. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.
如果你是树,你会挽留叶子吗?
那换来如果你是叶子呢? 你会因为风的追求而离开那棵树吗?
而如果你是风, 你知道叶子可能离不开树, 你还会继续追求叶子吗?
叶子的离开, 是因为风的追求, 还是树的不挽留?
Quotes
Life is short, don't waste time worrying about what people think of you. Hold on to the ones that care, in the end they will be the only ones there."- Anonymous
The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived
well."- Ralph Waldo EmersonAmerican poet, lecturer and
essayist,1803-1882
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are."- Bernice Johnson Reagon American historian and musician.
b.1942
Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind."- Dr. SeussAmerican writer and cartoonist best known for
hiscollection of children's books. 1904-1991
Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down."- Anonymous
You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel."- Anonymous
I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone."- JavanAmerican poet, (invented gas laser 1960) b.1946
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Someone speaking ill of you
If you hear that someone is speaking ill of you, instead of trying to defend yourself you should say: "He obviously does not know me very well, since there are so many other faults he could have mentioned.” ”
- Epictetus
To focus on techniques is like cramming your way through school. You sometimes get by, perhaps even get good grades, but if you don't pay the price day in and day out, you never achieve true mastery of the subjects you study or develop an educated mind."
- Covey, S.R., 1994
Daily Reflections for Highky Effective People, p.g 6
We simply assume that the way we see things is the way
they really are or the way they should be. And our attitudes and behaviours grow out of those assumptions."
- Covey, S.R., 1994
Daily Reflections for Highky Effective People, p.g 7
Saturday, August 05, 2006
The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People: Habit 1 - Be Proactive
Most of the hard moments of Habit 1, "Be Proactive" involves subordinating a mood, temporary feeling, or circumstances to a particular principle or guidelines you value ... ...
In the most fundamental sense, Habit 1 is the awareness of this space between stimulus and response - between what has happened to us and our response to it. Next to life itself, this self-awareness and our freedom to choose, to direct our lives, is the most precious gift and power.
The hard moment or testof Habit 1 is to be aware of and to choose to live your own life. It is seeing yourself as the programmer, not as a program being acted out."- Covey, S.R, 1994
Daily Reflections for Highly Effective People, p.g ii - iv
The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People: Habit 2 - Begin with the End in Mind
Habit 2, "Begin with the End in Mind" is the habit of vision, of purpose, of mission. It is a sense of what your life is about and how you want to live it. It includes the principles and guidelines you want to live by. It's also not just your values, for values without vision are insufficient... ...
For many, the test or hard moment for Habit 2 comes when you are tired and lazy - just going with the flow. Some new projects or meeting or day begins and you simply do not do the mental, emotional and spirtual work inside yourself to get a sense of how you would like it to end up. This does not mean you decide all the exact details of how you want the meeting or day to end up. But rather, you do decide what you want the spirit of that day or meeting and the quality of the relationship to end up like. You feel deeply committed to worthy end results and yet no action has been taken. "
- Covey, S.R, 1994
Daily Reflections For Highly Effective People, p.g. iv -v
The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People: Habit 3 - Put First Things First
Habit 3, "Put First Things First," is the habit of integrity, of discipline, of keeping that commitment. It is the habit that draws upon the indepent will to literally act upon those things which we take, in Habit 2, determined are first things. The hard moments of Habit 3 come at us constantly. Will we carry out forth our resolve? Will we execute? The deeper the resolve, the easier the execution - and vice versa."
- Covey, S.R, 1994
Daily Reflections of Highly Effective People, p.g v
The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People: Habit 4 - Think Win-Win
Perhaps the hardest moment and test of Habit 4 "Think Win-Win", is when we are absolute convinced we are right. We know exactly what should be done, what the decision should be, what we want. It is truly going for win-win when all you really want is your own way - simply winning. Or perhaps it's going for win-win another takes you on and opposes you, and you are so stirred up that you want to go for win-lose. You see it as a contest of wills; you don't want to give in. Or perhaps the hard moment is when you are threathened by the possiblity of displeasing someone and you need their acceptance and approval so badly that you want to go for lose-win. You capitulate and give in, rather than combining courage with consideration."
- Covey, S.R, 1994
Daily Reflections for Highly Effective People, p.g viii
The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People: Habit 5 - Seek First to Understand, Then to be Understood
The hard moment of Habit 5, "Seek First to Understand, Then to
be Understood." comes when you are crying to be understood. Perhaps you feel completely misunderstood. Everyone else is having their say and you are not. Everyone else's feelings and views are being expressed and yours aren't. Besides that, they're off-based and you have a much better idea. You matter, too. They
should understand you... ...A hard moment is to reach deep inside and subordinate your need to be understood and really work to get into the frame of mind and heart of the other. It is listening empathically and having the discipline and the patience to simply hold your tongue. It's constantly relearning the anatomy lesson that we have 2 ears and one mouth, and we should use them accordingly. (Only one of the 3 holes closes.)"
- Covey, S.R, 1994
Daily Reflections for Highly Effective People, p.g viii - x
The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People: Habit 6 - Synergize
The hard moment or test of Habit 6,"Synergize" comes when
you have a difference with someone and you are tempted to simply compromise. It's taking the course of least resistance by trying to quickly and efficiently find some middle position to satisfactory to both, even though you know in your heart it does not optimize situation. Yon know there are other unexplored alternatives out there, but there has not yet been enough Habit 5 to really understand the issue and the underlying needs and concerns of the people involved. In short, the temptation is to satisfy rather than to optimize.The key to press on with the spirit of Habit 4 and the skills of Habit 6 until the spirit of synergy starts to come into the relationship. Then you are both looking in the same direction and the searching for a third alternative whereby you not onlytolerate and accept differences, but actually celebrate them. You value the differing perceptions, feelings and expericences immensely, for they enable you to create something far better. Creating a third alternatives that is felt by each person to be superior to those orginally proposed becomes one of the most bonding experiences in relationship and in life."
- Covey, S.R, 1994
Daily Reflections For Highly Effective People, p.g x -xi
The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People: Habit 7 - Sharpen the Saw
Habit 7, "Sharpen the Saw" is essentially the habit that
this book represents. It is using our unique gifts and endowments to constantly renew ourselves physically, mentally, and spirtually, and to renew our relationships. In doing so, we counteract entropy - the tendency all things to eventually break down. One of the most effective ways to renew is through daily reflection and meditation. In both one's heart and mind, the renewal spirit is stirred. The resolved to live by values based on principles are renewed and deepened. Our batteries are recharged. The saw becomes sharper. Your life becomes sharper. You are better to do your work better, faster, wiser. You are better able to love unconditionally, to take initiative, to be both courageous and compassionate sitmultaneously. You're able to sidestep negative energy rather than give away your "space" to those people or things that seem to control or victimize you. When you don't sidestep, you literally give up your freedom to choose your response. You disempower yourself and empower others' weaknesses to continue to mess up your life. You are not living; you are "being lived."Reflecting and meditating upon principles of effectiveness which deals with all of life is as vital to our mind and soul as food is to the body. Yesterday's meal will not satisfy today's hunger. Each day we must eat. Each day we must reflect. If "Sharpen the Saw" truly becomes a habit, a deeply ingrained behaviour pattern, just as brushing one's teeth or bathing is, and if this habit is done in a balanced, consistant and wise way, it will affect the quality, productivity and satisfaction of every other of the day."
- Covey. S.R, 1994
Daily Reflections for Highly Effective People, p.g xi - xiv
Occupation and health
In Charlottetown I heard one day
An OT to an old man say
'You look so happy and fit
Can you tell me the cause of it
'It's what you do
It's being true to all the talents given you
It's taking time, and listening to
Your inner needs in all you do.'
'If you do this you will become
A person full of love and fun
A happy soul who's fit and well
By doing what your needs foretell.
If doing does not meets your needs
Your health will suffer with your deeds.
Not being true to Nature's lore
You can become sick to the core.'
The old man smiled to the OT.
He said 'Help people do and be
Help them transform their lives this way
By living health day by day.'
It's very simple, but so hard
When social pressure so retard
Our vision of what ought to be
The essence of a good OT. "- Wilcock, A.A (1998)
References:
Waiting
You waited for a better someone in your whole life but
what if there is no one waiting for you?"- Lake House
Friday, August 04, 2006
Love
Love is like catching a butterfly.
The more you chase after it,
The more it will run away from you.
But it returns back to you when you least expects it."
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